Heaven know's

Miyerkules, Nobyembre 7, 2012

In Love With You (with Jacky Cheung) lyrics
Just a gentle whisper, tell me that you'd gone
Leaving only memories, where did we go wrong?
I couldn't find the words then, so let me say them now
I'm still in love with you
Tell me that you love me, tell me that you care
Tell me that you need me, and I'll be there
I'll be there waiting...
I will always love you, I will always stay true
There's no one who loves you like I do
Come to me now
I will never leave you, I will always here with you
Through the good and bad I will stand true
I'm in love with you
Now we've here together, yesterday has past
Life is just beginning, close to you at last
And I promise to you, I will always be there
I give my all to you
Living life without you is more that I can bear
Hold me close forever,
I'll be there...

I'll be there for you
I will always love you, I will always stay true
There's no one who loves you like I do
This I promise...
I will never leave you, I will stand here with you
Though the good and bad I will stand true
Hold me closer...
Our love is forever, holding us together
Nothing in this world can stop us now
Love has found
Love has found a way ...
I'm in love, I'm in love
Yes I'm in love, so in love
I'm so in love with you....

Martes, Nobyembre 6, 2012

...I had a feeling and an instinct that someday we can be, but i do not know when and how? Maybe if not in this world, if possible can we meet in the next life? It is heart breaking to think of it....but i can't undo the past...if out of time, i could pick one moment and keep it shining, always new, of all the days that i have lived, I'd pick the moment i met you!

What if we meet in the time that there's no complication... the time when I'm free and free of everything??? ayyy here I am again... well, anyways that's life...Good luck for our life and take care of your heart coz you know who's in there...

Alam mo bang ikaw nalang ang kulang para maging kompleto ang buhay ko...But in reality in this world no one is perfect and no life is perfect...that's why hindi ka binigay ni Lord. That's why we are just like this... I accept the fact...and I'm happy to be just this way that i can still see u...  magcompose nga ako ng song...kaso matagal matapos, tingnan ko lang...maybe it takes 5 years to finish the song grabeh...bilangan nalang ng years.

How can i forget "when the only sounds i hear is the beating of your heart".




Lunes, Oktubre 29, 2012

Let us enjoy the moment that we're together...Let us be happy that we was able to experience this...my heart is with you, my heart belongs to you, you knew that...we cannot turn back the time...let us be grateful, not regretful.

All i want is to enjoy while i can still be with you, while i can still see u and while i can still hug you. I know for sure time will come that we cannot be together and if that moment will come i know it is very heartbreaking in my side but i understand you need to love another...a person whom you can spend the rest of your life. I want to enjoy the moment while you can still be with me...and while you still in love with me, while our hearts still met and the beating still the same...i cannot be with you forever in your side though my heart will be yours forever but in person it cannot be coz you need to settle down of your own...I will not think that now saka na kung moabot na ang time...but for now i want to enjoy and make memories together with you. Please be with me in this moment...

My Love, you will always be in my heart no matter what...I did not regret everything in fact I'm so happy that I was able to let you know how much I love you. You're the best thing ever happened in my life...the best memories I could rekindle... Nothing can compare for my love for you... not even the person in my side you knew that.

When I'm with you I'm at peace, the comfort that you can gave, the love that you could share with me is awesome.  I already admit I'm so in love with you but we cannot deny the fact... But whatever I'm so Happy already that i can still see you and hug you, for that very short moment I'm so grateful. I thank GOD for meeting a person like you, where my heart beats....

Sabado, Oktubre 27, 2012

GOD BLESS OUR HEARTS...


Huwebes, Oktubre 25, 2012


Yesterday when i ride a multicab going to my home somethings happen. Naunsa man pud nga nisakay out of my mind nilapas ko ug wala jud sa akong huna-huna nga hapit nako niabot sa ampayon. Pagkanalang balik nalang ko sa agi... i did not notice talaga...blanko akong mind, ayyyyyyyy i don't know nihapit paman tana ko ug simbahan tapos gusto ko sulod adoration kaso lang murag close na coz its almost 7pm, tapos sakay nalang ko ug multicab going home. Heavy lang jud ako feelings yesterday nagkapatong-patong na kasi ang gulo ng puso at isip apil na sa work, pero God is good nakabalik rapud ko sa ako agi and i reach home safe...

When my heart is so heavy last night i just pray to God and God is good because while I'm sleeping I dreamed of somebody who held my hand that makes my heart felt so light. Eventhough dili man kau nako makita ang face but so thankful that i felt good.  When i wake up in the morning...I'm fine. God is really good He's always there when i needed him most...LORD, thank you for everything...i always need you  as i continue struggling for life in this world...happy man ko or sad...in trouble or good... in good health or in bad I always needed you...

Linggo, Oktubre 21, 2012

You said you love me so much..

You said you Love me sooooo much but I think I love you much more than you do...but even though whoever is more ang importante we was able to experience it. Ano nga bang halaga noong Love na 'yon kung hindi na malayang maipadama??? What's the essence of TRUE LOVE when it not free to express???may halaga paba? Is it improtant to be together just to express those Love??? puede naman segurong mahalin ka ng nasa malayo??? kasi yon lang ang kaya kung gawin...Why it has to be me???

TRUE LOVE, no one knows except your heart...it just happened accidentally, in just a single flashing and throbbing of the heart...no one could ever tell...I just want you to remember even though we're not together...we went in separate ways but we LOVE each other...I've been trying to divert my feelings but i really cant...it would be forever...even you will LOVE another but my LOVE will remain...

Can u hug me tightly within 10 seconds?..don't release me until 10 sec is over... I MISS YOU

Miyerkules, Oktubre 17, 2012

I'm happy that i met you..

Maybe i'm crazy...sometimes i think am i normal??? I put myself in a bind, the beating and throbbing of my heart every time you held my hand . Every time i met you the feelings are all brand new. How to justify those feelings??? I did not want this to happen and for sure nobody would want this in my situation. It is hard to believe and it is scary... and i felt threatened but I'm happy coz you feel the same.. The throbbing of your heart i heard every time you will be closed to me. The pumping of your heart... it is hard to breath coz we're so overwhelmed. Ahhh i don't know how to express and i can't defined it. If only I'm free to express those feelings....

I don't know why these happened to me. I don't know what's the purpose of God to let me feel this way.  Of all the people why it has to be me...I've been trying to forget you.  I think of so many reasons and many valid reasons for me to let you go but every time i do it is squeezing my heart...it breaks into pieces... and then i tell myself maybe those reasons are not enough..

You're the only person who can make me crazy, Nakapagpagulo ng isipan ko, nagpapakaba ng puso ko, nakapagpatorete sa buong buhay ko, at syo ako nasaktan ng subra-subra. You're the one who can make me smile kahit walang matinding dahilan. Every time we've met there's something that i cannot explain ...and every time that we will be apart it's heart breaking... 

Hope we can always be happy without a commitment..that we will just allow ourselves to be loved and  to love. Magtiwala nalang tayo sa puso at kay God... can you ask God why??? ako nagawa ko na 'yon... Whatever his purpose be it done... i leave everything to him...

We will just help one another to move - on and just be familiarize of our own feelings...kumbaga maanad rata sa situation. This is relly Love forever...TRUE LOVE..that everything changes except the feelings that we had. Let us support one another la naman ta ana mahimo..seguro kung puede palang but-an ang heart ato na siya gihimo rather than to suffer this pain... One thing  for good in this situation is that i experience TRUE LOVE. ganito pala ang magmahal  without condition, whoever he is, whatever he takes basta mahal mo lang. Money cannot buy Love & happiness nor any material things in this world could exchange... I'm so happy that i experience this with you. I LOVE YOU.
THANKS GOD and thank you for loving me too...kung saan man tayo dalhin ng Love na ito...let it be...God is with us and I'm praying...
GOD BLESS OUR HEARTS

Lunes, Oktubre 15, 2012

"There is never a time or place for true love. It happens accidentally, in a heartbeat, in a single flashing, throbbing moment.” ― Sarah Dessen, The Truth About Forever

Why it is difficult to argue with the heart...Why it had to be you! bakit ba laging ganito ang hirap labanan. Another year had passed 6 long years but still you owned my heart and hirap nman nito.... Which in fact I had so many reasons to let you go... but still my heart won't do it... hayyyy buhay how would it be.

As I also said to myself I'm moving on... I always said goodbye too... it is easy to say but in deed its difficult...still i can't... i will just leave everything to God. I offer my heart to him. La nako mahimo hands up napud ko... i did everything to forget you to let go of you but still those things are not enough..

Times had passed so easily but the heart beat doesn't change...i thought my feelings would be diverted to someone i have but its not... I just prove that once you've given up your love it cannot be given to anybody else...

You make me smile...you make me feel so sad...you make me inspired...you make me in love. Ikaw lang naman nag nagpapagulo sa isip nag papatorete........hayyy ang gulo ng buhay ko.

Huwebes, Hulyo 19, 2012

Things happened in different way...I'm on my way...way to become more mature who can manage my own feelings and my life. This goes in different way...I'm moving and my only wish is to make my life memorable while I'm still alive. Life is so short, my mother died a month ago...no one knows until when we gonna live. Goodbye...I'm doing this for myself....I'm trying

Don't you knw that the time when my mama died, I've been waiting for your call even though I know it won't happen...I'm still longing for your comfort...for your little words of comfort but i know you will not do it... i have hesitations  in my mind, i don't want to think of you but hayyyy what a life would this be... I need another outlet of my feelings I want a new world... i want to exit... but how??? how could i exit from this situation... I don't want to bother you anymore....Talaga lang naman subrang sakit ang aking nararamdaman...kung puede palang maamnesia so i would forget everything...

Linggo, Nobyembre 27, 2011

For many months had passed after we talked...and i think that was the last but i know if in fate God will allow us to meet again i know there's no pain anymore. As of now i can say that i let go in my mind and my heart has gradually accepting that life is just like that. Even though we go in separate ways, the memory of you still in my heart and mind. I still remember whoever you will be and whatever you may undertake, i accept whoever you are. You can still lean on me and run... if you needed me.

I'm happy that you've moved on and as i see your pic in FB you are happy with the group where you belong now. Happy if you can find someone to love and someone who will care for you...

Martes, Oktubre 4, 2011

I've been bringing u in my heart for how many years...5 years...Tears are the witness...i spend time in thinking of you. Loving you with all my heart without expecting in return. It is just there resounding silently and now i just knew that you are a becky and at the same time adonis? A bisexual???I don't know how to react that the man in my heart is a person of two faces. It will not really set in my mind....I just smile but i don't know...of course it is hard to confront you and i will not do that too...I just bear it in my heart. I've tried to recall the things that we have done and all your doings today...I'm not sure...but how it happened in case you are .I don't know? You've loved me diba! But we have the same heart? Are we? "Kabaro pala kita". I don't know if my feelings would change, maybe i can answer it someday...i will just listen the beating of my heart if something has change in it. Maybe i can love you as a friends nalang? pero paano what would happen to my feelings. A feelings that i keep it for many years, where i cried so much and dreamed of you most of the time. It almost make my life incomplete because of you and then now?????? is this real?????? What a life????

Since you've been away...i haven't seen you for many years. I'm still longing for your presence, my heart still belongs to you. But i don't know now... i really don't know...maybe this will be an answered prayer but hopefully not in this way....I can let you go... In fact i already gave you my blessings to love another woman that  would love and cared for you forever. A woman of your heart...a woman who's desire is to make you happy. But what happened???? I really can't believe this man??? I can't really imagine a man in my dreams has to faces.... that he is capable of loving a girl and a man??? a becky???? Hope you are not????? Maybe if you are, someday i can accept coz that is still you. There's nothing wrong with being a becky...only i just loved you, minahal lang kita being my man...

Forever friends nalang...BFF????But i will wait for the time to set in my mind


How would this be??? I'm still hoping that it is not true....

Miyerkules, Setyembre 21, 2011

It was a perfect day... and i feel good, hope this process will continue. Many days had passed...days becomes week and weeks turn into months and months into years... my life is full of emptiness, something is missing although God is always with me. There were times that i just cried in his shoulder without any reason and there were times also when i just set down and moment tears falling down...i just wonder why? So many questions had come to my mind but since December 31, 2010 i discovered why? all the why has been answered and its because of you. Thanks for that time... although it is so painful but i know i can handle at least now it is very clear. I never thought it would happen... but God has given me courage and love to moved - on and left the past behind. You don't have to worry...I'm ok now.

If only I know how to manage this blog in the year 2006... i know i can tell more than i do. Those time when i needed someone to listen and spend my sadness with. Year 2006 when everything turn into reality...One of our common friend gave a dog and she named it in yours...it was ridiculous but in the house I didn't call him the way they gave his name. How could i forget..when that moment i want to evaporate. 2007 when i wanted to talk to you but sad to know that time is not really ours. 2008 when you wanted to see me but i said i think i'm not ready yet... i don't know at that time even to utter your name could not be possible my  body is trembling...it seems that there is something in you that makes me feel that way. 2008 you've given me a book kaso 2009 kuna nabasa coz i did not open it...until you ask me to.. but since that time that i read it there you're back again...But you know what ever since you're always visiting me in my dreams kaya noong sinabi mong soulmate seguro tayo nakumbinsi na ako. Kasi bigla ka nalang susulpot sa panaginip ko...2010 when i met you again but sad to know ..that was the time when something happened to your family...but that was my realization of everything. Now, everything is clear...2011 this is the time of facing the reality and accepting the fact...releasing all the sadness and pain...pain to let the past go by and move on to a new life. 5 years is over...but my memory still fresh the time when we're calling each other in the airport until my 2 cellphone got lowbat, it turns into empty bat and then you've texted me again call back but i read it very late already...the time when i read it the plane is up in the sky....tears flow by and by...


THANK YOU for the time...for making me feel that way even for a moment i felt your sincerity...really you made me feel... GOD IS GOOD

Martes, Setyembre 20, 2011

You're My All

...This is taken from a korean song..


I want to give everything for me
If it were for you
So I can be the only one to breathe inside your heart
I want to have everything of you
As if you were another part of me
So that even your little sadness
I can feel it too


As i become more similar to you
I always smell fragrant
You're so beautiful, it brings tears to my eyes
It is only you alone


I am really thankful, I am happy
That you were given to me,
until the end of the world
I will love you forever
I will never change, the way I am now



Lunes, Setyembre 19, 2011

Echoes of our Hearts

 ...Echoes of our hearts is an inspirational message from Joe D' Mango.. To inspire everybody to reflect and think how life is wonderful. Try to read this...

Sometimes we close our eyes and just listen to
the echoes of our hearts. We all fall inlove and
there are times when we love so much that we
lose ourselves in our own emotion. More often than
not, we wonder why there are love that grows, and
love that grows cold. We would start to search for
answers and try to find where love has gone wrong.
But in the end, we find ourselves where we started
for we cannot question love when it has its own
reasons. Love will always be as it always has
been silent, mysterious and deeply profound.


Many of us believe that love is forever, that love
never dies, only to be disillusioned in the end when
we found our hands empty and our hearts longing.
We mistakenly have looked at love as a need to be
fulfilled. But love is only a gift given to us. We
should not hold it in our hands for we may never
find the strength to let it go when it decides to
leave. We should only embrace its warmth and
glow while it last and then freely open our arms
when its time to say goodbye.


When we fall in love with someone, we dont want
that feeling to end for it is everything that we
wanted to be. We pray that love will stay and grow
in our hearts. But, if it doesnt then we should
never let our lives be taken by it, for life should not
end where heartaches begin.


There is always a reason why we have to move on.
When we have to say goodbye to the feelings we
wanted to stay forever, let us not wave our hands
with the heavy heart. For love will have to set its
wings free and find that place where it belongs. We
may have lost it but then again, when we close our
eyes and listen to the echoes of our hearts, we will
hear that feeling resounding silently forever.


Then well know that it has never left us, for the
good that we have become because of love will
always stay. It will always be there reminding us
that we should be thankful and happy, not because
we have lost love, but because for once in our
lives, that feeling lived in our hearts and made us
happy.

Martes, Setyembre 13, 2011

FORGIVE ME

Sorry for being self centered
      for not considering your feelings...
I'm sorry for breaking your heart when 
      you saw us holding hands...
I never thought you've seen us 
      What a small world we have...
Sorry for disturbing you in FB
       For posting some post pertaining to you


Don't worry, I will do my part
NO CALLS
NO TEXTS MESSAGES
NO FB MESSAGES 
NO MEET - UPS...
I PROMISE .... I will do.


I will just take steps @ a time
     Gradually....


Thank you for everything
     for sharing your life with me...
     for letting me feel this way ... even just for a moment
I felt your sincerity...


Thank you for the time that we are together...
      for the hugs and care...


I know we cannot be...
I know where i stand...
All I just want is to let my feelings go for me to move-on
Surely I'm gonna miss you....


I'M SORRY!!!
  




  

Huwebes, Abril 14, 2011

SOULMATE

"Destiny decides who you meet in life but only your heart can decide who got to stay in your life"

To the person i considered my soul mate...
I know i cannot prove my love to you anymore...
My life is already complicated... i have to stand by it and live my life to the fullest to continue believing that life is wonderful.


I know from the very start that i will love you..
From the moment i met you
But my life is very complicated that moment... i cannot decide base in my heart but base in what i see and what i believe is right... I want to decide to choose you but you've said not because of me but you decide for your self...and indeed i make my decision... even though my heart is yelling ... Ipaglaban mo naman ako pero wala eh... para sa akin wala na akong magawa... Mahal kita subra...


Until the time has come... while i'm walking at the aisle I'm thinking of you God knows while my fiancée is waiting at the altar and be united with me.... I saw faces of our common friends and my tears fill down...I texted you before i go down in my car...and just replied "ok" but in my heart said "please stop me in doing this"... then, i said maybe this feeling of mine will be gone when i live this man in front of me...


I thought i can forget you...and i never thought i could love you this much...
5 years had passed but still you owned my heart... 
I know this would be forever...


How could i say goodbye to you my dear soul mate... When in my heart you're the one i ever wanted


"It's hard to wait around for something you know might not happen...but it's harder to give up when you know it's everything you ever wanted."