Heaven know's

Linggo, Nobyembre 27, 2011

For many months had passed after we talked...and i think that was the last but i know if in fate God will allow us to meet again i know there's no pain anymore. As of now i can say that i let go in my mind and my heart has gradually accepting that life is just like that. Even though we go in separate ways, the memory of you still in my heart and mind. I still remember whoever you will be and whatever you may undertake, i accept whoever you are. You can still lean on me and run... if you needed me.

I'm happy that you've moved on and as i see your pic in FB you are happy with the group where you belong now. Happy if you can find someone to love and someone who will care for you...

Martes, Oktubre 4, 2011

I've been bringing u in my heart for how many years...5 years...Tears are the witness...i spend time in thinking of you. Loving you with all my heart without expecting in return. It is just there resounding silently and now i just knew that you are a becky and at the same time adonis? A bisexual???I don't know how to react that the man in my heart is a person of two faces. It will not really set in my mind....I just smile but i don't know...of course it is hard to confront you and i will not do that too...I just bear it in my heart. I've tried to recall the things that we have done and all your doings today...I'm not sure...but how it happened in case you are .I don't know? You've loved me diba! But we have the same heart? Are we? "Kabaro pala kita". I don't know if my feelings would change, maybe i can answer it someday...i will just listen the beating of my heart if something has change in it. Maybe i can love you as a friends nalang? pero paano what would happen to my feelings. A feelings that i keep it for many years, where i cried so much and dreamed of you most of the time. It almost make my life incomplete because of you and then now?????? is this real?????? What a life????

Since you've been away...i haven't seen you for many years. I'm still longing for your presence, my heart still belongs to you. But i don't know now... i really don't know...maybe this will be an answered prayer but hopefully not in this way....I can let you go... In fact i already gave you my blessings to love another woman that  would love and cared for you forever. A woman of your heart...a woman who's desire is to make you happy. But what happened???? I really can't believe this man??? I can't really imagine a man in my dreams has to faces.... that he is capable of loving a girl and a man??? a becky???? Hope you are not????? Maybe if you are, someday i can accept coz that is still you. There's nothing wrong with being a becky...only i just loved you, minahal lang kita being my man...

Forever friends nalang...BFF????But i will wait for the time to set in my mind

How would this be??? I'm still hoping that it is not true....

Miyerkules, Setyembre 21, 2011

It was a perfect day... and i feel good, hope this process will continue. Many days had passed...days becomes week and weeks turn into months and months into years... my life is full of emptiness, something is missing although God is always with me. There were times that i just cried in his shoulder without any reason and there were times also when i just set down and moment tears falling down...i just wonder why? So many questions had come to my mind but since December 31, 2010 i discovered why? all the why has been answered and its because of you. Thanks for that time... although it is so painful but i know i can handle at least now it is very clear. I never thought it would happen... but God has given me courage and love to moved - on and left the past behind. You don't have to worry...I'm ok now.

If only I know how to manage this blog in the year 2006... i know i can tell more than i do. Those time when i needed someone to listen and spend my sadness with. Year 2006 when everything turn into reality...One of our common friend gave a dog and she named it in yours...it was ridiculous but in the house I didn't call him the way they gave his name. How could i forget..when that moment i want to evaporate. 2007 when i wanted to talk to you but sad to know that time is not really ours. 2008 when you wanted to see me but i said i think i'm not ready yet... i don't know at that time even to utter your name could not be possible my  body is trembling...it seems that there is something in you that makes me feel that way. 2008 you've given me a book kaso 2009 kuna nabasa coz i did not open it...until you ask me to.. but since that time that i read it there you're back again...But you know what ever since you're always visiting me in my dreams kaya noong sinabi mong soulmate seguro tayo nakumbinsi na ako. Kasi bigla ka nalang susulpot sa panaginip ko...2010 when i met you again but sad to know ..that was the time when something happened to your family...but that was my realization of everything. Now, everything is clear...2011 this is the time of facing the reality and accepting the fact...releasing all the sadness and pain...pain to let the past go by and move on to a new life. 5 years is over...but my memory still fresh the time when we're calling each other in the airport until my 2 cellphone got lowbat, it turns into empty bat and then you've texted me again call back but i read it very late already...the time when i read it the plane is up in the sky....tears flow by and by...

THANK YOU for the time...for making me feel that way even for a moment i felt your sincerity...really you made me feel... GOD IS GOOD

Martes, Setyembre 20, 2011

You're My All

...This is taken from a korean song..

I want to give everything for me
If it were for you
So I can be the only one to breathe inside your heart
I want to have everything of you
As if you were another part of me
So that even your little sadness
I can feel it too

As i become more similar to you
I always smell fragrant
You're so beautiful, it brings tears to my eyes
It is only you alone

I am really thankful, I am happy
That you were given to me,
until the end of the world
I will love you forever
I will never change, the way I am now

Lunes, Setyembre 19, 2011

Echoes of our Hearts

 ...Echoes of our hearts is an inspirational message from Joe D' Mango.. To inspire everybody to reflect and think how life is wonderful. Try to read this...

Sometimes we close our eyes and just listen to
the echoes of our hearts. We all fall inlove and
there are times when we love so much that we
lose ourselves in our own emotion. More often than
not, we wonder why there are love that grows, and
love that grows cold. We would start to search for
answers and try to find where love has gone wrong.
But in the end, we find ourselves where we started
for we cannot question love when it has its own
reasons. Love will always be as it always has
been silent, mysterious and deeply profound.

Many of us believe that love is forever, that love
never dies, only to be disillusioned in the end when
we found our hands empty and our hearts longing.
We mistakenly have looked at love as a need to be
fulfilled. But love is only a gift given to us. We
should not hold it in our hands for we may never
find the strength to let it go when it decides to
leave. We should only embrace its warmth and
glow while it last and then freely open our arms
when its time to say goodbye.

When we fall in love with someone, we dont want
that feeling to end for it is everything that we
wanted to be. We pray that love will stay and grow
in our hearts. But, if it doesnt then we should
never let our lives be taken by it, for life should not
end where heartaches begin.

There is always a reason why we have to move on.
When we have to say goodbye to the feelings we
wanted to stay forever, let us not wave our hands
with the heavy heart. For love will have to set its
wings free and find that place where it belongs. We
may have lost it but then again, when we close our
eyes and listen to the echoes of our hearts, we will
hear that feeling resounding silently forever.

Then well know that it has never left us, for the
good that we have become because of love will
always stay. It will always be there reminding us
that we should be thankful and happy, not because
we have lost love, but because for once in our
lives, that feeling lived in our hearts and made us

Martes, Setyembre 13, 2011


Sorry for being self centered
      for not considering your feelings...
I'm sorry for breaking your heart when 
      you saw us holding hands...
I never thought you've seen us 
      What a small world we have...
Sorry for disturbing you in FB
       For posting some post pertaining to you

Don't worry, I will do my part
I PROMISE .... I will do.

I will just take steps @ a time

Thank you for everything
     for sharing your life with me...
     for letting me feel this way ... even just for a moment
I felt your sincerity...

Thank you for the time that we are together...
      for the hugs and care...

I know we cannot be...
I know where i stand...
All I just want is to let my feelings go for me to move-on
Surely I'm gonna miss you....



Huwebes, Abril 14, 2011


"Destiny decides who you meet in life but only your heart can decide who got to stay in your life"

To the person i considered my soul mate...
I know i cannot prove my love to you anymore...
My life is already complicated... i have to stand by it and live my life to the fullest to continue believing that life is wonderful.

I know from the very start that i will love you..
From the moment i met you
But my life is very complicated that moment... i cannot decide base in my heart but base in what i see and what i believe is right... I want to decide to choose you but you've said not because of me but you decide for your self...and indeed i make my decision... even though my heart is yelling ... Ipaglaban mo naman ako pero wala eh... para sa akin wala na akong magawa... Mahal kita subra...

Until the time has come... while i'm walking at the aisle I'm thinking of you God knows while my fiancĂ©e is waiting at the altar and be united with me.... I saw faces of our common friends and my tears fill down...I texted you before i go down in my car...and just replied "ok" but in my heart said "please stop me in doing this"... then, i said maybe this feeling of mine will be gone when i live this man in front of me...

I thought i can forget you...and i never thought i could love you this much...
5 years had passed but still you owned my heart... 
I know this would be forever...

How could i say goodbye to you my dear soul mate... When in my heart you're the one i ever wanted

"It's hard to wait around for something you know might not happen...but it's harder to give up when you know it's everything you ever wanted."

Love Letter

To you my soulmate...

Bakit ba napakahirap magmove-on
Kahapon ngayon at bukas ay ikaw parin
Sa isip bago matapos ang araw 
at kahit sa panaginip ikaw ang nasa isip

For years i fall on you
Kahit minsan di ka nakalimutan
Kahit alam kung kahit kailan ay hindi na maging tayo
Hindi ko ka parin mabura sa puso

My heart belongs to 
noon paman at hanggang ngayon
Kahit iba ang nasa ang tabi 
ikaw parin ang nasa isip ko

Unfair man sa kanya 
gusto ko mang maging honest 
pero di ka magawa 
dahil alam ko masisira anumang mayron kami

Alam ko hindi maitutuwid ang isang mali 
sa isa pang pagkakamali
alam ko darating ang araw magmahal ka muli
makakalimutan mo rin ako